I wonder at awe

I walked into a romance that swept my feet to fall

I blew adrift in dreamless bliss wondering at awe

It seems my love explodes to touch and longingly desires

to face the face of eternity in the heart of passions fires

i delve and burst and rise and fall in arms that cannot bare

the love I know may overflow even to much to share

I frighten you and that scares me that I could care too much

I know not peace inside of me if I not know your touch

Close to closer

What makes me feel enjoyed by you
Simply cannot be seen
Only felt by being true
to the person that I've been
I have regrets but not of life
only of my part
since I've traveled far to light
yet never light of heart
Somehow these things that matter
matter not the same
They feel thin not fatter
when I'm enjoying you again

So here i sit refreshed from long thoughts fulfilled

glad in the deep parts that often suffer silently

I can claim no great knowing or worth to this status

This i will say..i am trying

I have been no brave knight in these dark years

nor a kindly shoulder as i had so often hoped

I was a torn and rummaged beast of this cogwork

Though i loved in word i seldom acted in its favor

I did try though...that i always did

I was found

Lost no longer for this moment

The circling showed something so familiar

I saw my mistakes cleared and was glad

I never suspected the beginning would wind to the end

Then again i had never truly tried

The Answer Machines

The Phone Left to Ring
A Message in Itself
Just a Series of Tones.......Moans
I Answer in Kind
Inside
Hello?
I am There.....Are You Here?
There is No Way Past the Dialog
Word...Statement
Phrases....Paragraphs
It Will Not Yield a Look Inside
The Mechanics are Human Built
A Fine Reflection
A Resounding Response

Positive/Negative

The Lighting has Found Me
This Anguished Rush Pours Through
Where is the Storm? Why Just This?
Touched like the Hand of Death
Yet..Blown upon the Neck
The Compression Turns to Pops and Hisses
Light Dancing Over Synapse
Burnt, Scorched and Ashen
I am This
A ground I seem to Lack
A shock so Heavy it Shears Hope
A Bolt, Static Charged and Latent
It seems I am the Storm

The Drink

The Swells Bursting Like Bubbles
Each Tasting of Tears
From Longing To Yearning
I indulge the Troughs
Dirty to the Eye
Imagine what it Must Taste
Cloudless Calmness Cracks
Till it Breaks
Wills Now Wishing
Hooking For there gods
Wild as Ivory and Bludgeoned for Fancy
This Hollowed out Hell Floods Ever Deeper
Circle Meets in Infinite Spinning
Prayer Returning
Rewound and Recycled
Facing the Serene within the Surreal
A Pageant of Color
A Pallete of Salt
Doubt Now Forgotten Behind Swollen Eyes
Hope Left Unspoken
Constricting the Cries
Floating Away While it Destroys us
Yawning
It Manifests Inside of Us
Seeing Beyond What can Guide us

Sense Nativity

Sense Nativity

pickled

if it weren't for the circles
i'd be a square

when i feel like going
i know i was there

to alice in wonderland?
to nancy drew?

to much a helping hand
will only slap you

none sense i do agree
a most unpleasant irony

to finally look
to finally see

to suddenly truly be

then the topper
i am without me

storm raging
crashing thunder upon sheltered walls
dropping all else weathering the beating upon the surface
filling the porous
flooding the parched
the fright of the crash and the blindness
the quiet
the colossal
the lightning of the night
stark-standing.. stifled
the spectator soaked
understanding.. weathered away..
eroded in the deluge
drowning in the sight
of the occuring

poise

still
motions detected in the dance of days
vibrating with the wind
center of the stage
myself, the audience
applauding the performance
grand
the piano silent
the keys content
note the notion
standing
still

accomplish

so much is so little
the wealth seeming futile
heavy in distance constant persistence
boulders of purchase
myself merely surface
spread to clear thinned to glass
shards of future pieces of past
viewed as plenty
lifetime of empty

what of it

this merry go round
returned to the source
dizzied
a spectacle to be viewed
i have seen this
if only the nasea would pass
the blur fading with stillness
the melody calls
the return seeming inevitable
the ride amazing
glittering shine and frill
the steady and silent harms
head aching
i barter another ticket

whirlpool

I’m silent things to say hard to define
I’m alone, things to define so hard to say
I’m quiet left in thought
Desperate for an answer
I’m asleep desperate from thought
Left so unanswered
I’m confused, I need this, hold me near!
I’m silent, I’m far to near…. needless
So hard, no definition
An answer, a dream

vocal lessons

How many ways, how many days
Time moves on but so much stays
The nimble mind plotting its own worth
The subtle election of its choicest girth
Retracting, refracting, inverting itself
Redistributing the known in subliminal stealth
Confusing its purpose to points unkempt
Renegotiating wisdom better handled when bent
The purity of purpose seen without scope
The recollection of old redelivered to hope
The cardinal cause the increase of want
The sorrow well known in the things that haunt
Handle it- one jump towards the hole
Coping mechanisms anchored to word control
The dealings emit a sense of discretion
While the answers deliver complete incorrection
Stand solid in choice without choosing too much
Land is afoot don’t overextend the touch
Will to choose disavows itself in extension
Wisdom offers itself in each intention
Engage yourself in you without end
Removal of purpose follows the trend
Each moment running through eternity
Opportunity ending in the search for security
All you are is what you commit to honor
The endless expansion revolts the donor
Choice means choosing out of the mass
Decisions made and stood by tend to last
Honor the moment by staking a claim
There is more to choosing yourself then your name

visual aides

Triumph in the eye of trauma
Truth in the heart of drama
Beauty in the face of danger
Understanding of our neighbor
Relationships ripe with inspiration
Dreams from the insomniac nation

ventures

The broken parts seem to fade
As the nimble frame works to compensate for the loss
Yet how can a heart be healed?
Is memory merely a device to render pain patient?
I pray it does not cause ignorance to fall prey again!
Yet in weakness I discovered new strength
The less limber becoming burly
The less plausible becoming possible
But why does it hurt so much to breath without her?

vapid

Release me!
The grasp tightens
Options diminished
Life cycle in high gear
Counter clockwise my dreams
Clockwise my hopes
Ticking my time away
Sometimes so fast
Others far to slow
Let go of my goals
Free my soul
To barter with I have nothing
A few drops of tears on my cheeks
Technology is oh so swift
Decimating, creating, hating
My life an abyss
Masturbating, permeating, evaluating
Slow the cycle?
Or just so long to travel?

upon a time

Missing you, sometimes to tears
Remembering our golden years
Forgetting when things weren’t right
Loving you alone at night
Thinking how lucky I was
Longing for a reminding hug
Praying you dream of me
Holding you eternally

who's driving this thing?

I see myself as a mirror a wall
A tall man short, a big man small
I look as water in a tirade
I feel as young as old age
I cry with joy when tears are ice
I laugh in glee as if a vice
The oxymoronical metamorphosis of me
The perceivably perplexing incongruity
The residual revampment of my heart
The continuous contraception of its start

youth

A shifting wind, a cyclones course
A fathomless existence with an unknown source
A forgotten dream and a silent call
A heroless earth in the endless fall

trying

Welling up inside this rising tide
The past that never died
Why this remembering
Again and again and again
When will it be over…. when!!!
Fantastical memories of love
Covered in blood
Why must I confront this flood?
The angers gone
Or am I wrong?
How can this pain last so long?
I know trust is broken
Fate has spoken
All the beauty love held
Stolen
I love in remembrance as if in a trance
Far to frightened to return a glance
I speak of evil with no chance for retrieval
Held between teeth clenched resentful
Why this lie
Forcing me to live without “I”
Laying down each night to a nightmarish lullaby
Effecting me with pangs of jealousy
This fruitless mess called society
I push forward always on my guard
Confronting the mirrors that stare so hard
Dear god release I pray
Endless day
Cleanse the past clear away
I feel so certain to draw this curtain
Though each attempt leaves me smitten
Let it be said
Lye with the dead
The Unknown Soldier inside my head
Pass over this man
Be gone if you can
Take away my crutch so that I might stand
Leave not a doubt
Nor the faintest shout
Bury this down with no way out
Burn this heart pull the arteries apart
Before I find this self
Back at the start
Murder me quick but don’t let me slip
Into its clawed and clenching grip
Love is no longer
Anger is stronger
Finish me off draw out the dagger

trifles

Do it!!… If you wish
What can meager man do?
Can I help! I think not
Washed clean…. Dreams of hope
Trodden through the gate
Trojans all!!
Not warriors in any staggering sense
Menial man
Stained to stink
Deepened with wretch
So damn average
Just human
What better do you do!?
Are you betterman?
Man the same!
Helpless in vastness
Stolen or replaced
Token or trophy
Now…
What dreams with eyes opened?
Trifling mortals
And I contest the wind
Battle me but falter
By what right!!
Am I not correct?
Is this not my nature?
Mind alone is not man
Mind alone is no thing
Yet we are all things
Beasts who waver
Tongues, which drool
Slovenly perhaps
What was the hope?
Stop the thought
End the will
Make me animal complete!
Stop the herding
Complete the crop
Sacrifice the bull
Return us to the hole
The mind erodes the comfort

tough crowd

People say that time moves on
Leading us to things unknown
I can’t see beyond this state
An agitation that’s only grown
Call it stuck, I call it stale
Recollections of my sometime
It all tastes of salty seas
One foot on a pressure mine
The future looks, the past stares
These moments all reflect
From mirror to mirror
This appearance represents neglect
Birth to death, a blink of light
Time remains flashing at twelve
I wish the gears would grip
Over-lubricated I see my selves
Drowned in remorse to live
As a turtle that can’t reach air
Most agree the past creates the now
To me somehow it’s not so fair

touched

Silent yet so loud
Her smile always sounds

todays

Two days and three nights
These wrongs feel so right
Deep dreams, silent sleep
The day’s rewards reaped
A lengthy stay for one who travels
An impossibility for worthless drabble
Not for us we lucky two
One weekends work to get us through
One bed fits so many desires
Yet we who love are but liars
This wonderful life is so easily won
Two days and three nights to spend as one

to Be..... continued

The desperate quest yields no harvest
Trying quite hard to put forth the best
Still so unresolved after all the attempts
It hardly seems to make much sense
Until we establish the goal of this hunt
And realize what was, wasn’t what we want

throaty

So much beauty and I am alone
So needy to find love for someone
So hungry after the years of thirst
So ready for some kind of rebirth
So tired, so weary
So worn down and dreary
So what!!!!!

the weirding way

A witch’s brew
Minds, mixing and molding
Ideas, illusions, indecisions frolic inside
The pot is infamous for its concoctions
Foul even deadly
A gravy for government
A sip for Satan
A little taste of life

the In doctrine nation

We all strive for that completion
The foundation of all emptiness
Release driven deep
Pressed hard
Laminated truth now our Q-card for satisfaction
That angry kempt up sword
Now solidified with stubborn standards
The bare lamentations on the flesh
The iron red and ready
For the explosion of reality

the deviltry of society

I wake up each day in question
I walk steadily in reflection
Who am I?
I dream of contentment
Outrunning resentment
What am I?
I long for love with security
I live life in eternity
How can I?
I look for goodness in it all
I strive for things I never saw
Why would I?
I lie alone by choice
Against the world I raise my voice
For what?

the death begins

A thought wandering, as vivid as color
Tangled webs now swept aside
Eyes wide with the beauty of the concept
The dream fades to perfect bliss
And the idea becomes the idea..ls
Goals and needs… exploited
A child is born and so death begins

the animal

Rabbit hop home to me
You taste so sweetly
Bunny come close for it won’t hurt
Carrot be my new dessert
A death embrace
A fuzzy taste
Another idea quite poorly based

testing testing

Pieces placed in improper pose
Love and lust now overexposed
Lines seem mixed together and jaded
While truth and faith seem chemically faded
The solution is stale, the light far to bright
The dark room of love in full moon light

terror soul

Don’t notice me when I cry tonight
Hiding in the darkest cracks from sight
Facing the cold with no firelight
Draw me like water in the pool of cess
Rotting and bloated from excess of stress
Hiding behind a shadow of death
I long in sleep for the succession of breath
Dreaming in haste for the end of unrest
When it comes to handle me harshly to hell
To loosen my flesh from its mortal shell
Lending me weight to struggle to my cell
Cast your eyes to the face of the sky
Forget this moment in the objects that fly
Turn back to the love of all lies
The internal gloat and the malady of self
The perversions of flesh and the consumption of wealth
Die as I in the quiet of stealth

taxi?!!

I found myself locked between two doors
My entrance is all that I know for sure
The carved wood seems somehow familiar
Although the surface seldom betrays the killer
Neither note within nor sign without
Which one did I enter and which way is out?
So many choices now reduced to two
The quasi surreal turned totally true
The reduction of all that happens to nothing
Back into the focus of things forgotten
All choosing matters regardless of focus
The decisions occur if only unconscious
The patterns we set engage our intentions
Our failing to notice leaves without mention
The places we find ourselves when we notice
Were known all along beneath the surface

surmise!!!

Choice
So much a centerpiece
A hinge that swings doors
The value outside the options
Resulting in what is opened
To choose affects the will
To be able to choose
Regards the direction
This force propelling
Leads nowhere
The source
It’s feeding
Decides the worth
Endless choosing may never lead
To knowledge
Knowledge has no worth
Without wisdom
Wisdom is a principle of worth
Worth as a center of loving care
A societal concern
Love need be chosen
Love representative of considered care
Not a blanket statement admitting all choices
Choices have effects and defects
Love refers to proper action
Proper choice
Proper refers to considered results
Results that add to loving care
Not remove
Non-sexual always
Political never
Politics reduces all concerns
To sound bites
Sound bites reduce all things
To empty
The issue is of considered caring
Love as a benefit to others
Fostered
Above and beyond
Not over and above
Not personal satisfaction
Human interaction
Not separating and selfish
Love is caring action
Wisely considered
Outside projected instantaneous fostered beliefs
The American institution
God based uniting

stuffed/full

Life flows as if it were blood
Pumped full
And spread out thin
A vast circulatory system
Always returned and recycled
The centerpiece of all the attributes
If emptied slightly
The whole endures
If infected, now disturbed
A small constant
Effacing all corridors
A puddling and polluting influence
Whirl pooling its way
From top to total
The clear view of the dry depths
A foreshadowing of the spiral

storage

Valued shoppers with rotten milk
Values ground to soil and silt
Time honored truths
The batteries dead
Enter the solar powered truths of tech heads
Speed to the wall
The future calls
It’s not the truth that matters
Only the size of the balls

steadfast

How years go by in misery
Betrayed to the light
From night to day delivering
Truth however slight
Creaking to the new day
Heated by the sun
Rise from wasting away
The crypt keepers come
Blinded…don’t fear the release
Sight returns
Wrapped in the banner of peace
Repel the burns
Secure the door behind in faith
To the nevermore
From dark dreams awake
Into safest harbor
When vision returns accept it
All will be new
Life and death are reflected
In our everyday view

somehow forgettable

I am thinking of you
This conundrum unstrung
A laughing heart purged by mind
With no dismay
Just regard for a contender
The elevation of jibbing to quibbling
Tongues smooth as chocolate soufflé
Dancing on gusts of pure oxygen
Feeling light-headed for the occasion
Eyes wandering
Held only by the others glances
Expressions from circus to serious
Embracing from a distance
Under the mirrorball
Light, heavy with visions
And notions
This touching sparks frictioned flames
Heated enough to calm the cool
Nothing known or unknown
Simply rediscovered
A view of beauty beyond the microscopic
Pristine patterns
Featuring flows of breath and depth
You are all this in certainty
I am onto you in your beauty
Kiss me tonight on soft lips
So that I may know your touch

skimming

Slapped senseless like a deer in rut
Unbeknownst of my true goal
Anything to do, I must do
So hard this coarse world
This pillar we stand tall under
Barring ourselves from escape
By endorsing our façade
As a life run wild with pride
A pride of silent love
An envy of every one with ideals and morals
A vulgar yawn of stench and misery is left behind
By years of uncaring for body parts
Left rotted in the infinite plane of the soul

sincerely

When we spend time, life takes meaning
I cannot recall better times with sweeter taste
I see myself in your space laughing always
It was only a few days
Together talking and even less
Holding you… but it was too much
Too much because I think how great you are
Making me feel welcome
You are whom I enjoy
Funny with swift wit
Tender and strong enough
Without me
It’s late, I know
And letters are words not actions
But I miss talking with you
Your character directs me
To see you more as a woman
Less as an object of want
Fun and free
Honest in your speech
About who and what you feel
It’s wholesome
In a groovy way

simple/division

The failures of the system
Are the flaws of human
The brightest of creatures
Can ruin the simplest plan

side door

Dreamily awaiting the silent skies return
While patiently contemplating why my visions blurred
Hoping for the answers to all that I have seen
While fully understanding that my chances are so slim
What can I lose when its said and gone
The dreamy time I choose is how I get along

shock therapy

Who am I?
Sometimes I try to recall
Averting my weak will from its desperate immolation
Betraying my bold boyish brash and opening the source of introduction
My soul
So alone, as darkness to blindness
As ignorance to love
The pity I feel for myself… tasteless bitterness
My energy against gravity
Allowing the momentum of one foot fall to the next
Dry, the rainless puddle of my desire
Barren as a sad thought on a blissful day
Somewhere in between love and longing, I slumber
Sleeping, the duty of the numb
If only I cloud burn, feel the surge of sense rush my barricades
Scorch my chilled motor
Sweat out the bloodless thumper, frostbitten and stilled in time
The racing flush of heated breath
Oh! To flavor the nostrils with scent!
Non-sense!!!
It is my hearse…. Early to grave, never to rise
Empty inside where nothing hides
Where am I?
Memories branding my frosted form
Extending joy buzzers to jump-start my flat line
Can I help how my circuits sizzle?
Eroding into a unity of static clottage
Coagulating constantly… to less
Draining into thick
The pit is I
How can I climb out?!!!

share me

I feel a bit alone with you
I want to feel your side
I like the way your body moves
It’s fluid gentle glide
You draw me in to close to dare
I stand away and hide
I want to live in your stare
And to you not be denied
So find the hand I hold to touch
Take it in your own
Feel its flowing vibrant clutch
Have your feelings shown
Embrace me now in steely sleep
Lay me on the air
Let’s place our heads cheek to cheek
And alleviate all care
Gravitating slowly on the elevator down
We’ll ride to dust together
In one another…resound!

see-man

Alone with love
Can it be so real?
Not a lonely man but a man who feels!
Stop the heart that beats so heavy
Pounding my ribs as if to escape me
The yearning for wonder inside this body
Exploring its self to uncover the godly
I love strong, outside of being
Yet this mortal flesh is all that they’re seeing
I’m more than this, so many me’s
Explore my depths and my boundless seas

save the nickel!!

A simple element stamped upon the periodic table
Blasted from quiet bliss
Raped and burned
To sustain, the once leashed government
Forgotten!
It’s extreme enmity rages… silently
As if gods we erode its past
Mold its future
Twins, triplets.. They all are identical
Sickeningly equal, without distinction
Peace and solitude
It’s once serene and sublime past
Now an eternal hell
Raised as a rare creation
Reduced to a pawn
In the rancid festering flesh of society
Nothing is ever consoling in this fated fallacy of life
Nothing!!!
I too hold the strife of this element
Jingling in a denim pit

RUN!!

Lying alone naked in my mind
Empty soul lost in time
Fire streams through dreamy still
Engulfing life in encapsulated pills

rolling away

A tear drawn from thoughtless dust
Sweet and sin like in its softness
So silent and peaceful
A translucent existence
Never expected
Nervous hands
Swiping saturated flesh and insoluble thought
Love
…Blink!

restoration dichotomy

I picture you now with a negative
A reversal of color and direction
The original lost in scurrying forward
A sentiment reduced to recollection
The search uncovers hope
But spreads longing
Memory insufficient to maintain the grasp
The photo finished ahead of its worth
The negative once ignored facing rebirth

response able

Lying naked covered in shame
The chill well brushed aside
Now trying endlessly in vain
To establish herself in her pride
The emotional faucet broken at source
Now spilling karma of certain recourse
What person with wisdom aligned
Endeavors selfishly when selfishness they’ll find?
Clarity in conscience with total lack of love
Was the cause of her hurt
When push came to shove

reason for change... anybody?

When nothing works why do we bother?
Look at me in my underwear with a dying pen
Pointlessly we both exist
The pen at least with a purpose
Alone as always I possess a solemn look
Resolute that life is a failing institute
I always ramble
Hard to find something worthy of thought
I feel worthless
Handouts anyone and I don’t want change
Just a few reasons
Almost the A.M. and I’m still ticking
Language is too much a barrier
I can’t even spell the words
I love
Just like every word I write
Nothing I possess do I truly own
Accept my babblings and my breath

premature

Tire irons and car jax
Leather gloves and running backs
Cuffs and chains
Horses and reigns
Heartaches and bloodstains
The cookie jars
Of stolen cars
Boy meets world
Within iron bars

platonic plates shifting

The soul lies bleeding, deeply rote
With love scarred, beaten, sold and bought
Lonely in life perhaps better to deny
The heart breaks less when left in a lie
The present to the future is gift wrapped tight
The passing of the present apparent delight
The Trojan whores sneak out to destroy
Uncovering the bodies of loveless boys

overgrowth

Devils bones on ash covered mounds
Silent screams to gods ivory horns
Fastened harshly to Christ’s whipping post
Hotter than the hell they know as home
Lost in a forest of petrified trees
As the cold bites at your axe wielding hand

out sourcing

One in many
Signifying nothing
Recognized merely as another
A transubstantiation of truth
Reflecting rectification
Without consent
Hybrids
Marginalizing the master gene
The reject
The replaced
Without respect
Displaced
The icon rendezvous with the architect
Into the hall of mirrors

onto something

This life envelops from all sides
Hearts compress within its drive
Truth squeezed bursts out its seams
Lies crawl in the spaces between
Hopes drift with the pressures blow
Thoughts shift from things of the know
Belief becomes a blanket of wool
Quickly shed with the tensions pull
Desires comfort with swift effect
Thought overcome by the will to forget
Conditioning hardens the pythons grip
Wisdom is left with nowhere to slip
Residing in self cut off from its source
Clenched within doubt held without recourse
Life envelops from all sides
Egos of children along for the ride
Deciding the minds of those who neglect
The importance of showing the proper respect
The wizened heads of men of state
The pioneers that smashed through the gate
Unleashing their will as dogs in heat
Jumping on the chance for a fresh piece of meat
Barking the call that starts the gears
Rushing to hold back the truth of our fears
The wagging of tails calming our minds
While love for itself, once seen as divine
Gets crushed by the desires that bind

om-impotent

I am angry with myself
A youth
A mere boy in the valley of men
A silent majority
A time to realize is upon me
A day to really wake up
To taste my own snow
To work to a higher ideal
I feel my youth, being
A young and spellbound society
A controlled sperm
Nabbed tail first and spaced
Facing the resilient gravestone
Born dead
Left in a body bag
With billions of hopeless murders and pregnant wives
The time of denial passed
I know too much to be allowed to die
Grasping god’s hand I beg

null void

Thoughts vacant yet possessive
Dominating my vacuum
A full bag dumped like spoiled milk
Dust whirled by the slightest breeze
Leaping towards everything
Yet never clinging to one specific
Some items more wet to the taste
Steal more of the dust
though the rain washes it all away
Only to wait for the dry season
Where the vacuum clicks on again

not i

It is not I that knows
I favor myself a fool in confidence
Long years timed and ticked together
Heard words delivered just concerns
Rampant certainties
Rummaged bought, some sold
Distant lines touching to the earlier
Tailed now,
Delivered self-certain to the who
The once that was
That seems to is
Mirror ball telling the future thru history
It is not I that knows
No longer
No shorter than my now
I delve hypnotized
Living the detail
Focused dilation
Consumed intent
Now famished
Extinguishing light starved time
Present standing
Presenting the singular moment

nesting

The loner marks his perch with blunt boldness
Serene in demeanor though explosive
The boiling point released!
One faded light to blackness
A darkness now regal in strength
Paramount to quiet prestige
Vivid signs erasing the opaque contours of tradition
Time cannibalizes in the struggle
To remember what we never wanted to know
For ignorance is valued
When innocence is attained

my self aware

I haven’t made much time for money
Haven’t made much more for food
But I have lived a lifetime
In the moment and the mood
Can’t say the efforts better
Won’t say that the feelings fresh
The truth is much different
I am merely bone and flesh
Take me out of mind
Take me away from you
I can only be myself
And your thoughts ain’t always true
Don’t pick me up from the ground
Stop reaching out your hand
I am only resting my soul
If I need to I can stand
Walk away walk away
Your steps can lead me on
I’ll keep you in my eyes
Till their blinded by the sun

my love explained

My love of time
Make my heart stop its rapid beat
My love of life
Let me live for her love to gain
My love of joy
Save my eyes if only for her smile
My love of sin
Keep me pure for her tender touch
My love of nature
Let your features carry her splendor
My love of poetry
May my love help me find yours
My love of Kathy
Make the world a heaven

modernized

When I was then
I had no now
It all just is’ed
And ended
Years to days
The energy
Solid steel beams
Drawn by the magnetism of ignorance
Intellect the gas
Will holding the flame
My life the ceteline torch
Struggling with sparks of hope
Betraying this carcassed skyscraper
Too tall in tale
Too hollow in hope
Unprotected from the winds
Subconscious weathering
Growth
The last beam I had dreamt to enlist
Now warped and rough to risk
Riveted to my structure
This swaying
This bedraggled lark of a home
Few windows
Doors scattered like chaotic summer showers
Standing

me dom

To do what’s right
Every man woman and criminal
They all strive to do what’s right
Never can the mind be understood
And sad death and tears will sprout
Misunderstood and misjudged
I fear not
I know the place where it resides
The space between heart and soul
The feeling!
So we live and laws reign
A wise choice
For justice is corrective
To do what’s right
Don’t we all try?

longgging

I sometimes wonder what I expect
Dreaming of bliss and the ensuing rapture
Longing for life to lick my face
Confirming my worth without words
An effortless entry into ecstasy
My mind drawing upon its age-old myths
Remembering the fantastic as if it were typical
Unable to rationalize this world’s rationale
Praying that what the heart and soul loves…is

grinds

I am a blender on high
Grinding my teeth to dust
The recipe lies unnecessarily
The mix is all there is
Everything thrown everywhere
Spilling, foaming, spraying
The color of grey
With the taste of white
Bartender to the unconscious
Aware of the complete lack

leaps and bounds

The chipped and eroded congress
The parched and abandoned people
The reigns released
The foul tasting injustice
Reeking of the future
Technologically and systematically eating away the past
Paving the way with good intentions
As OLD sayings go

keeping current

The gentle roll of the sea on the soul
The wave may grow so keep in tow
Follow the current to find your flow
Remember as it breaks to release the sorrow
For as one wave folds another shall grow

kathy

Hair as lovely as a rose in bloom
Eyes as beautiful as the rising moon
Cheeks white as new fallen snow
A smile touching as the winds slightest blow
I dream of you in nights sweet caress
Offer for you my evenings bless
Cry tears of undaunting care
That I might give my life to share
In happiness by your side
Together in love we will abide

intimately

Fulfill me with your tender care
Engage my heart in longings stare
Delve down inside my soul
Re-discover the bond that makes us whole
A beautiful trust envelops our minds
Endearing us both to something sublime
I envy you for all that you are
I’m jealous of me that I can’t give you more
Hold my hand and we can run again
Bring me close and I’ll help you stand
The glory of you involves my self
Together rich not in gold but with wealth
I love you today and the tomorrows that come
Two hearts beat stronger when together as one

in tense

I’m a little pissed off with the world
It’s empty face pock holed and reaching
Worse than any beggar or borrower
A waste to know when one cannot!
What are the expectations of the billions who will live?
Will die alone and uncared for
Their money rotting in denim pits
Colliding with stacks of cards from stacks of cards
Are we all so written and so defined in engraved detail and splendid color?
I cannot even begin to recognize any one of these things as human
Wandering beasts of prey and always so damn hungry
Yet constantly consuming
Like coal trains errant and out of use
They clog the air with their coughing
Am I broken-like inside and out?
Or just enslaved in freedom?
Where are my beliefs in this shit hole of choices?
The time machine of truth running awkwardly
In and out of empty
The lie is my faceless friend who holds my hand
To dance it all away
I don’t want to swing and spin
I understand the beat only too well
It is the song of the sirens and it has no melody
But foot stomping
The circle of people closing in
Pushing their friendship on me
As if I could doubt their truth
What peer is this that equates to all things so effectively?
With the same innocence as birth
My womb is bleeding!
The effort to hold on to this child
To allow it one more day of real
The middle is crooked and the slant hurts my eyes
I can’t seem to adjust to the pressure of the angles
Walking onward only draws them nearer
And my mind has little room left for violence
How can it all be so all right when I a reasoned man
Can find no reason to reason
I can’t stand to be insane when I feel so well defined
Where is my choice to be?
Where is my hopeful?
Filthy dirty just by nearness
And it don’t clean with tide
The waves work their mania
As all good statistics of the machine
I guess I’m figured out
My secrets are dear abbeys and sold for sex
The violence on the rise of which I cannot understand
How can we fight ourselves when we accepted the courtship of the fair miss mediocre?
I give no such struggle
Hugging myself to breathlessness
While silent vigils of resentment exhale from my escaped self
The blind lead with the consent of the ignorant
Into the flame of change
Under the eye of instincts
Mans first and last and middle and eternal
Constant circle of regrettable self-sucking lust
Each mans a woman and all things to each other
And one and the same and shut your mouth!!
Where am I in this!!!!!!?
I gave in
I quit
And yet its still here
It won’t go
Quit me mind!!!!!!!!

i am i

I am conscious of being who I am
I am conscious of doing what I can
I am aware of the senses that make me feel
I am aware of myself making me real
I am told of notions outside of my self
I am told of discoveries that benefit health
I am subjective in thoughts and emotions
I am the object of others commotions

hush

Speech is the hardest form of sharing
Languages die or live on chance
Some hold beauty or strength
None hold truth
Yes or no are all that are required
Words offer only grey
A chance to stretch the simple
Exaggerate
Exploit
Not enjoy
Eyes see details
Words try to mesh people
Crushing much to much less
More to cover up
More to confuse
Empty shelled
Hollowed
Sifted
Slight of hand
And innuendo
Listen
Listen well

how cliche'

I’m greeted each morning with absurd looks
Pretending no care I avert my eyes to my books
I wonder why I’m called strange
Am I so different or so deranged?
“ Be yourself” a saying well know
I stare about me for individuals
Am I alone?
I don’t understand why they need such attention
My simple mind cannot make the connection
I see right through their hollow eyes
Empty of truth yet so full of lies
My thoughts aren’t of jealousy
For I feel none
I’m just thinking to myself
“Why am I shunned?”
The sun shines bright and free in the air
It never views the stars
I doubt it cares
The stars all look alike
Though I don’t know why
Foolish world forever goodbye

hosed

A dirty hand
Stained and stagnant
Worthless and handicapped by choice
Painful to the senses
And to the mind
Wouldn’t you flood it?

horizons

Tired of sleep I find myself dreaming
Wrapped in peace and joyous rebirth
A double-sided diamond flawed and fantastic
Reflecting…an image of a collage
Ephemeral
A static ecstasy zapping friction
Poignant to a point of perfection
Like the beauty of cruelty on a blissful day
Lightly taken with sugar on the tongue
Too fulfilled to feel the emptiness
A trophy reminder of the real victory
Shattered for the joy stored within
The casing of the shell falls short
While the powerful truth speeds away
Why do I lie awake only wanting sleep?
Make mistakes seeking perfection?
Cry when life seems so wonderful?
Dream of dying when I fear the unknown?
Lie to myself when I’m the only one I can trust?

hop, skip, jump

Who can stand the patient man
When the crowd rushes past?
He takes his time moving on
Though the current runs fast
In all the hustle which he avoids
You can notice a sense of need
While on that man whose patience holds
There’s to much air to breath
No signs of stress reflected
In that casual gliding step
While every other person seems
To be running out of pep
So what is the method
Employed by such a man?
It is nothing but a subtle case of
“I don’t give a damn!”

here me!!!

A candlelight seduction
Pupils dilated to orbs
Now yummed and pleased
Enjoying the violation resurrection
Absorption and retention
Feathered together
Knit fitting and enticed
Arms deep, refreshed
The bondage offering lent
This regeneration mantra
Pulsed electric and shocking
Attention certified beyond absorption
The starlight streaks shining
The felt breathed intimate

heady waters

What can be said to the tide?
It will crash undeterred
Can I be the boat?
Coasting with the course
Does not the wave face its master?
Conquered by mans genius
Felt and delved, uncovered
The human of this nature
A root, a seed, the continuation
Surpassing nothing… adjusting
I know the moon…. In here!
It is crest and trough
Our love can be no less
Let us follow the wind!!

hard looks

Analyze my demise
And find a lack of surprise
For what lies behind the eyes
Are the choices of our lives

gentile

To be wise it would seem
That one needs to know
When to defend oneself
Or to fire a blow
It’s not wise however
To raise a hand
In sight of the blindness
Of everyday man
To smite a blow
To wizen the fool
Adds one more of kind
Back into the pool

feeling thoughts

What magic is this?
Infused with…
My blood pulls from within
The power of love
Discipline of course and flow
Pride
For faith in self
All galloping in stride

enough?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In between books
Unbinded
The story seemingly running onnnnn
The plot so nearly extinct
Who call this “novel?”
The watermarked pages hardly print worthy
Passages…
Like paraphrasing
Quote
End quote
Parentheses!!!
Reiterating everyone always!
Pure thought?
Purely speculative
A phenomenon-----} DONE
Every composition
A compilation
Contraception
A stink tank
The blenders overheated
The words… simple letters
The mind completely souled out
The idea! The idea!!!>>

fairy wails

Vacationing again
Alienated from the world
In my world
Condemned by years of dissolve
Detergent days filthy with bleach
Excess fun with extra foam
Damn near perfect cycle
Twirling to a dizzying stagnation
Not stench but stale
A quick draw with a dull wit
To unattached to be together
What Freudian Pavlovianness is forthcoming to this conclusion?
Why continue on this cycle?
The deadhead Peruvian dance
To the beginning!?
If it all foreshadows Peter Pan
Then shed a little light on my darkness
Where my outside hides

enlarger

Flavor me with swelled scents
Collages of beauty so effervescent
Clogging my mind in a dreamy daze
Combining my nights with the sights of days

face this!

I try to run
To be alone
Rushing from my wound
As I start
I turn to stone
Living in false bloom

embraced

Fondling the inner child
I find the molestation of its mission
The groping tendrils of tasteless touch
The slobbering suckle of remembrance
The violation of its private affairs
The divorce of the light
By the actions of the night

dessert? desert

Ohh!!! Strange fate
To realize so late
The love of you so penetrates
What once was good
Could now be great
How to eat from this empty plate?

exposure

The light may blind
As darkness did find
Returning its head to its behind

dealt with...

Two days to deal
Can’t stand the wait
Hoping to steal from the hand of fate
To open the door
Enter the passage to the real
Escaping the bore to truth unconcealed

excel or rate?

Megaphones prepped with focused motion
No surly thought or unconscious emotion
Detailed stages and complex notions
As we attempt the feat of gaining promotion

confront me

Joy
Life’s aphrodisiac
Sedative by no means
Luxurious in its richness
Shallow in its wealth
Enjoyed as candy before the consumption
Heavy as a grave in depth and decay
A friendly hello
Before the departure
Wound and waiting to meet again

coarse

I am alone, a wandering minstrel
On a half charted course
Soon to be dead
Without true purpose to have lived
My goal to become the beginning
What never has been…
Unity without fallacy
Equal to the human creatures

closer to closure

Ridicule or compliment
Can traumatize with sentiment
Even with the best intent
A negative vibe may be sent
For a loving gesture to be true
Send a warm embrace or two
Nothing short of this will do
It’s the worlds best I love you

chilling

Angry and bitter my strength reborn
Fluttered guts from the rising storm
Getting carried away as the deluge grows
The mind disengaged turned to physical blows
I’m stepping up to overcome the storm
I’ve learned to control my hate for the norm

bestial headache

Innocence, I’m sorry…
Ferocious hot guilt damns my soul
Eternity lost in a crack of lightning
The sound to follow thrice as condemning
Spare me cruel mind!
Love a twisted thought lost
Nightmares and not soon forgotten pain
Why live only to remember?
The expanse of time dulls the sense
As age creeps over the somber being
Yet his anger’s extreme
In the few mock gestures his body releases
Never! Never!
Will he not forget!?
…Nor will you

benevolence

A silent serenade to beauty and undying hope
Rising sun alerting the crows to feast again
Slumber a dead mans escape
The earthly skies betray a quiet love
Broken by the trees hungry gaze
Lies of leaves that jump from their nests
Fooled by Mother Nature
Only to be swept up and incarcerated
For something they believed to be wise and right
For all who live must die
And all who die must first have suffered

be live it

Standing still while walls close
Holding fast to ones bedposts
Only hoping the grasp will hold

are YOU out there?

Who is this that writes these words?
Evoking the power of speech and thought
Within others
Strange diagrams of shelled up letters
Cluttered bundles of shapes mesmerizing minds
Who birthed such things as these?
The power of OM
Echoing out its cosmic game
Each echoing reverberating sound
Holding within it a chorus
A life, a cry
A laughing god!
Even a mumble speaks eloquently
A silent smirk talks endlessly
Hidden strength
Vibration
Energy
Show yourself!
Stop speaking so loudly
So that I can come out
Hide no longer
so that I need not

another day some say

Today I feel like that tree
The big, thick barked, tangle of limbs
Hugging itself in its fabulous folds
Today I love like the sunset
Radiating beauty, mesmerizing humanity with simple splendor
Not intending brilliance just being it
Today I dream like a fast jet
Leaving a trail to show the way
Flashing hope into clouded eyes
Today I know like the geese in winter
Traversing through time to a new destination
Calling out with song to gather the flock
No need for certainty of the approaching winter
Today I remember like an old cliché
Heard and finally understood
So simply spoken yet sweetly sophisticated
A reasoned solution to a loving life

an olds mans ravings

Dreaming I write on golden parchment
To die is my goal… a vampires kiss
This thatch-covered hole
I wonder on “times” reasoning
Such a weak seat of ideas and inspirations
Fit for the silent dream
Hours turned years
I’m old and forgetful
Yet the bamboo holds me still
Hard, dry pit I curse this creation
Yet you served me my fair share
I guess there is a spot for goals

ahhhhh!!!

In love I lie as if silently sweet
Lost in a sensation that never repeats
Like massaging the mind with gentlest strokes
Or resting your bones sprawled on the couch
Dreaming awake in a land newborn
Seeing the first light of a new dawn

a bloody banner

A challenge is proclaimed
The walls are strengthened
The battle cry’s a winter tear
Chilling to ice, a thought frosted…stone
A riot on hand!
A bloody battered banner, a last stand
Faith not fear!!
The cry is heard
Souls exist. Though I lose the battle…
The war my friends…the war!…to victory!

silence, creating thought

I stare into the evening sky
The glittering twinkle of an eternal eye
I stand alone, a choice of will
With an empty space in my chest to fill
You seldom forget mistakes once made
The pain slowly passing yet hard to fade
I enjoy this time alone and free
World peace and harmony surround me
After a time such troubles pass away
Becoming expressive without words to say
Time passing quickly, one must go back
The understanding drifts towards the black
Facing the jury of your fears
The feeling of control now a stream of tears
The truth is revealed and the emptiness lost
A few lonely and silent nights the only cost

shortfall

I elevate my life towards you
Ensnared by fear and doubt
I embrace my own empathy
The sky looms far above
I fall from my nest, restless
Wings without the air of thought
I envision flight but for another
Myself no longer pure
Born into weakness and bred by desire
How do I fly? I am not yet a bird

life

Leftover love
Imagined hopes
False beliefs
Eternal hell

resurrection syndrome

No not again this return has too much substance
The reasonableness oppresses me and disturbs the ease
I fear to know what I have known
To recollect the girth burdens this ox
Blind sight over blindness, that tinged of understanding
A faint trickle of the possible but no solidity
I fear the harvest with my yoke swollen shoulders
The plantings long forgotten and trampled… emerging
What causes them this return?
A few tears shed in winter can hold no such strength
A slight rest on the earth can offer no real warmth
The seeds able to fend me off
It seems the choice has gone beyond myself
The seedlings have me now

precious

A predetermined love
A predestined loss
A preternatural experience
Yourself

poor

Today inside I longed for the ride
Away from what corrupts with pesticide
This pain in which I seem to abide
Awake, the time when I can’t seem to hide
Swift is the air that rushes without care
Healing the stench of rot that’s everywhere
So fast the cure for vacancy of stare
While the signs of the times scream “beware”
The drive is long to which I strive
The dreamy wait for the time it will arrive
Swarming thoughts that seem to be alive
Asleep inside the heart of the beehive
The end ensues so swift to amend
The cure for hurt is surly to descend

perspectives

I never met a girl as lovely as you
When I first saw you I felt this true
It was first a look that turned a stare
And a thought that perhaps this girl will care
Treating you like a game of hide and seek
Without attempting to look, refusing to peek
Why couldn't you tell me your feelings were none?
That what I thought started had never begun
My heart has begun to crumble and break
I feel a fool who fell for a fake
Consumed with desire I blotted out
What it was you cared most about
I am sorry Kathy for this mistake
I realize now you hold a love that won’t break
Have a lovely life, work without worry
Any trouble I have caused I am truthfully sorry

in sight

A portal has just broken
A sight is left to see
A dream has gently spoken
Kindly words to me
A slight crack of sunshine
Dances on the day
Entrancing me with love
That words may never say
I sit in its shadow
Like the earth on a moonlit night
I remain in the shallow
For its depths are far to bright
What realm of glory
This portal must open
For I feel so desperate
For the rest to fall broken

in grained

Me spying myself
Through the circle of would
The cyclical graining
Embracing years spent idle
I see
What me could be
If I woodn’t

i wonder

Splash!
The herds of condemned rodents damn themselves to certain fate
One leap on faith and legend
Do they know something I don’t?
Splash!!!!

i strain

I can’t accept your empty smile
I hold in hand my hopes denial
Enjoy the look of longings depths
Run the path of baby steps
“Just a man” is what I quote
as I wallow in the castled mote
The walls slick, the gate tight
The mud so thick it conceals all light
To escape… I can’t seem to find the time
Nor even the vision of the blind
I seem to quit what I did not start
While continuing to burden my laden cart
I cannot accept your smile sir
Your own thoughts just won’t register

fester

Decaying flesh with rotting bone
This traitor that never learns
A holocaust of trillions
Senseless yet somehow beautiful
This yearly irony, a lifelong enigma
Small, large, fat, skinny…they die
Heaps of their bodies pollute the landscape
Cursed world!
I stroll through the ranks of the dead
Pondering their opaque atrocity
Realizing…I shall never understand

feel me

Behaviors shift
The assembly line of emotions
End over end, frightening, relaxing, intriguing
Virtues possess less than meaning
A tyrant guide to paranoid life
polluted water leading astray devotion
A ripple, a causal effect of betrayal
And the line tumbles end over …

farming

Confined to an eggshell
Boiled hard in the harsh environment
I crack!!!
To leave my shell leaves me open to hungry predators
The salty stalkers and fire starters
The driving force behind my hardness
Hawking hands streaking for my yoke
So scantily clad in its milky white purity
The tasty target of all scavengers
Feeding off the flavor of sweetness
Basted bitter with desire
A clear-cut case of confusing the chicken
With the egg

high way

Today’s yet another trial of mind
Will I accept the things that I find?
Will I fight the desire to still?
Or strengthen the hardness of a weakened will?
The day then the night and more to come
The dark and the light containing no sun
Focused on the road hypnosis sets in
I forget the fact of my driving
To what or to where it seems i see
But hypnosis can be so very tricky
We see what we want in these paved streets
Now ridden to death by marching feet
Trodden to hell and then back to earth
Risen from death and spoken at birth
A cycle, a wheel, a sentence so dry
Just before it’s spoken the speaker must die

eye see

I looked crookedly into cracked glass
Framed in browed eyes
Shattered with melancholy
The image seemed too cryptic to discern
So somewhat savagely
I blanketed the view
Opening the medicine cabinet

envoked

Final thoughts on lying dogs
Faintly sleeping in the thick of fogs
Howls low on slumbers leash
Turning over in silences sleep
Who awakens these beasts at rest?
Raising fangs to bare chests
Letting loose peaceful thought
Grasping on to that which is not
Who would be bold to brandish a blade?
Facing the face that anger has made

compliance

First stop landing zone
Entrance hot can’t go home
Fire light, comrades down
Gunshots buzzing round
Can’t feel my thoughts worth
Still lost inside
Following my own rebirth
Deeper into the eye
Glancing back, only space
We’re left behind heavens gate
Moving quick to the dark
As day begins to fall apart
Where can the dreams be
When the sleep has gone?
Who can wish to save me
When it’s all so wrong?
Stopped inside the panic
One finds no space in the attic
Last stand in the cellar
The fear release the killer

cleaner

A splatter of disaster
can turn much faster
With a sprinkle of love

window

It began with a smirk
Turned to a grin
A darkish red to the color of skin
Then a dawning of sorts
Appeared in the eyes
A stiffness relaxed
By the slightest of sighs
A looseness ensued
Causing the shoulders to sink
Then an insight appeared on which she could think
And just at that moment
Where everything makes sense
Her boss screamed her name
And she began to tense

whats wrong with this world?

Within twenty years times have changed
The life we lived rearranged
How have we become such ignorant fools?
Rejecting our gods, we rusting tools
Lets stop and think about our lives
Things much worse as our faith dies
The reason we live in the back of our minds
Locked deep within where nobody finds
Think ahead for life is so, so short
Eternity our future, life our court
We alone decide the future beyond
Do we want me or our god?
Earth as our judgment, rise or fall here
Choose awe to bring yourself near
Deny yourself nothing but tears
Free your soul for the end is real

we two

Tall and lean, strong to boot
Full of love for life’s pursuits
Longing for an unbridled Soul
To epitomize his final goal
Perfect peace in beauties bed
Resting thought in his wizened head
Growing plump on pure peace
Losing all sense of disease
Infecting his frame, a termites home
Never noticing that they had come
They say a watched pot never boils
That nothings gained lest one toils
Then how is love fit for man?
Who strives and strives and strives again
To hold to something far to hot
Reaching for a thing that cannot be got
I’ve heard love is a many splendored thing
But isn’t love what you bring
Not a sensation but somewhat more
A remedy of sorts for dis-eases cure
Maybe love is more than we can know
Forced to accept its ebb and flow
Rejecting ones strength, wisdom and state
Face to face challenging fate
Two as one distinct by choice
Doubled in mind, body and voice
Separate for always, together to stay
Experiencing each other anew everyday
How is it we know yet fail to do
Not accepting that separate but equal is true
So we strangle ourselves within the threads
Intricately woven strands of dread
Stifling growth we see as deceit
Entering the cycle we are forced to repeat
Pouring water to stop the burn
What was once basked in now we spurn
All in response to the loss of control
Of two persons minds placed into their souls

waking

Peace of mind is what I seek
Smashing steel and burning through glass
Molding and shaping…forming
Loss of mind is what I speak
The rights of silence and corruption

visions

Silence
A chance to remember
A hollow log full of life
Perceptions redirected into discovery
Focus revealing splendor and suspense
Microscopic memories, echoed enticements

unfulfilled

Welling up inside, the rising tide
The past that never died
Why this remembering
Again and again and again
When will it be over…. when?
Fantastical memories of love covered in blood
Why must I confront this flood?
The angers gone or am I wrong
How can this pain last so long?
I know trust is broke
Fate has spoken
All the beauty love held ..stolen
I love in remembrance as if in a trance
Far to frightened to return a glance
I speak of evil
Little chance for retrieval
Held between teeth clenched resentful
This living lie, facing life without “I”
Laying down to a nightmare lullaby
Effecting me with pangs of jealousy
This fruitless mess spelled society
I push forward always on my guard
Confronting mirrors that stare so hard
Dear god release, I pray
Endless day
Cleanse the past clear away
I feel so certain to draw this curtain
While each attempt leaves me smitten
Let it be said!
Lie with the dead
This unknown soldier inside my head
Pass over this man
Be gone if it can
Take away my crutch so that I may stand
Leave not a doubt
Not the faintest pout
Offer the buried its way out
Burn this heart
Tear the arteries apart
Before I find this self returned to the start
Murder me quick do not let me slip
The clawing clenching iron grip
Love is no longer anger is stronger
Finish me off, draw the dagger

uncomprehending understanding

I thrive on confusion and your love
Weak in my present state
Ignorance pleases your stale heart
My pain the fluid of your veins
Released guilt caught in my reflection
Loneliness my stigmata, love my cross
This fools solid heart burns strong
Flying into open skies with his legs anchored
Faces, hearts and souls roam free
But this fools heart to blind to see

typical

As I sip my daily Snapple
Words erupt
Peering at trash and thinking
Of chipmunks
I write
How I feel accomplished is anyone’s guess
How accomplished I am…a guess!

twogether

I must defy what is myself
If only I can stand
The face of change belies stealth
It only reprimands
The target zone is my soul
The center of the stage
The likely home is in the whole
Empty yet full of rage
So in respect and ceaselessness
True care must be leant
To dissect what is useless
That I might be content
Together then let us face the eye
The flurry of the foe
Again and again to deny
That he was ever so

trick or treat

Fruit flies desecrate a sheep’s berry stained hind
While 54 rats feast on the dead fruit flies bodies
For the sheep sworn enemies of the flies
Had learned a deadly new secret
About poison berries

trial by conscience

Betrayed…. I wait
Silence surrounds this crypt
Missed opportunities or dodged chances?
Foolish youth!
I a bastard of this cruel hard world
A slate as broken as my dreams
To take my chances means to close the last door
The door to my cell

total ruin

People walk the streets all day
Never realizing what they say
The days tick by and out they come
Merely little and white say some
That’s good stick lie upon lie
What’s to happen on the next try?
Payment comes for each passing whim
Calling you out to face them
Slowly fading you lose all good
Replaced by your lie filled hood
You see before you your life run away
Thinking quickly another lie comes to stay
It works and your world returns
Yet deep within something burns
The pain is real and you’ll feel it some day
Perhaps not here yet somewhere some way
You will face the face that speaks so ill
Seeing yourself and the filth you spill

to my smiling epitaph

Dreams the pillars of my life
Left silent and forgotten
Till sleep rise again
Waking to my silent thought
ideas rational in kind arise
Friendship and peace!
Words of joy not sultry silent pain
Wonder in my soul
A land before time, a thought before mine
A dream of potent flavor
Our world and all its horrors

timing

The phone call that never arrived
A dream that so long ago died
A matter of import, it means the world to me
But I just cannot be bothered to see
All the truth in this world on my side
Spent loving she who openly lied
Three days thus far I have waited
It appears her idea of open is tainted
What can I do when her part falls through?
Whom can I turn to and what can they do?
With words not actions she has reigned supreme
What her reasoning, it is not seen
Why tell me so much and give so little
While I she claims to love am stuck in the middle
I am a fool giving myself up to peril
When I open my heart to cold caring carol

thoughts

Alone again
scared of my shadow self…life
Ideas! Startled by thought
I write to hide….escape
To listen is certain hell. Never
Wishes…wishes..Dreams
Need I continue? Of course
I must! To stand by and..
To move and…then to want to…
…a mistake… I CAN not!
Must write! Must avoid…!
Can’t..won’t
…I have..

theorized

Does no one see that life shall end?
That what we possess cannot defend
Who can challenge this fate?
In the first moment we are to late
Science shall not preserve a soul
With chemical compounds in a mixing bowl
Can sight be blinded by drugs so simply?
Truth forgotten as mere mystery?
God taken as a possible outcome
Yet less likely as evolution
What wine is this diluting the wit?
This hostile enemy of the human spirit
Perfect humans like perfect jewels
Beautiful things though merely tools
Unity of love shall create our equality
Science can often confuse our reality

the story

I meet your gaze it must be my eyes
I stare to see beyond your beauty
I search your being and meet love
I cannot escape as the grasp tightens
I will not fight it I want this
I see beyond the superficial
I see faith and morals
I see beyond beauty
I see fun and possibilities
I see beyond you it’s my reflection
I see a dream I want so badly
I see a love, only I hold the key

the queen

A slide from one position to “other”
Years dedicated and hours served
My mind, my escape, my control
Sometimes a trifle cup of idle talk
Others a hot plate and spicy side
A “that” place away from life
Yet lively with the living
Maybe more of a symbol
Like Stonewall Jackson’s monument
Stable, sturdy, secure
A reminder of the past
A redeemer for my future
Four walled asylum
No glitter, no glamour, just glide

the pounding

Elastic thought stretched to commonsense
Snapping impulsively back by natural reaction
A twanging alertness confessing unrest
Slapping confusion into bedlam
Redefining sickness with a cool composure
A sick day for school
A missed calculation
Waylaid by a desperate urge to rest

the olding

I beckon to the past where thou be
Rest in peace and complacency
Do not speeaketh thy resounding chorus
That it may discover one so porous
I pray I may beseech thy favor
That I may forge through the past unwavered
Relinquish my garb now worn and battered
To cover the panes that have been shattered
Seeking salvation in the mirth reborn
Wishing thee nigh hurt nor scorn
Patience pray my soul uncover
Finding within love for another
May merriment infest my nights
While silent peace holdeth my sight
Releasing cruel resentments to the sky
That joy may be present to you and I

the expanse

Asleep I dream of reality
Suffocating evil and refurbishing peace
Never a loser.. King for hours
I create sanity and I can kill
No morals here, no rules
Afraid of nothing and no one
No god, no black scar on society
Pure hell! Fear and death
Mans heartless dream
A silent existence

the diner

A cup of coffee boiling with gossip
Steamy and so very hot
Lies with thick gravy on the side
A warm discussion…a heated debate
A heavenly glance at earthly lust
A few tears for all the laughs
A heavy trip for those who can’t walk
A light head for those few conscious
A typical time for those alive

crystal love

The sun shines through crystal love
Blinding sight and silencing thought
All on a whim
Eyes dazzled by a beauty uncomprehended
The passage of time a slow close
the crystal love fades
Now eclipsed the crystal blackens

sucsex

Unconscious mind and molecular mass
Secreted love and poised retreat
Disciplined criticisms
A protective hand yet a loveless guide
Cleansing the dangers of the path inside
A rollercoaster ride all downhill
The moment now over two forms lie still
Forgotten respect and the devils hand shaken
A “mans” goal complete another virgin now taken

station

I watch as the world moves
I watch as time chimes on
I watch as people change
I watch as loves are lost
I watch as tears are shrouded
I watch as walls are built
I watch…

spoken out

Static
The mind numbs
Dumb restraint on stale belief
Helplessness on the fetal faces
As if all pure and festive
What entropy is this?
Enticing me to stillness
Opaque in thought
Dry in tone
Hard in structure
Frightening in newness
The school ties binding

speech... impediment

The silence as the talking died
Left in want of my lips to hide
It seemed so long without a word
While it seems now so quite absurd
What need have I for nameless jibing?
Tactical speech full of casual lying
And still, nothing is learned by the endless sounds
Although something stirs and the stirring resounds
It’s not about speech but it is the conductor
Surrounded by fools and with them the suckers
Who believe in the wall and not what’s behind it
Who lurk behind shut eyes as if blinded
Why can’t the speaking stop its distraction?
The speech through its words chances chain reaction
This response is how truth is resembled
These words need only spark to kindle
The truth is we just want to mingle
Afraid near to death in life to be single

socialites

Simple computer chip slabs
Placed in their “proper” locale
When they deemed it logical
To situate themselves elsewhere
Keeping their temperatures steady
Now withdrawn and stationed alphabetically
Verbatim wishes rejected
Some crumble
Others defuse
Yet all are crushed
In the plunge
From freedom to conformity

sliver

Lights turned to nightlights
Small samples of daytime
Remedial reminders
A sort of reminiscence of white
Not as splendid or lively
Not empty or void
Simply… slightly…. stained with silence

slightly self-ish

I want a love to hold me down
Crush my hands with pure resound
To rush death on timely lines
To find faith in ridiculous rhymes
One who sings softly
So I cannot understand
Why the fuck did I give her my hand?
To slap the shit from my lips
And get stuck beneath my fingertips
Not to slow my stilled heart
But to help this fucking retard
To make it through one more day
By getting in my fucking way
So I won’t die so damn swiftly
And find the time to fill my empty

situation

Loss assaults with vigilance
Private in its affairs
Longing patient
Intent like fire on fuel
All consuming
Tender for the touch
Splendid in intricacy
The cock crows
Echoing always
Resounding
Pounding
It becomes breath
Constant and forgotten
One with
We are all longing
Stretched extension
Sorrow full

silence, creating thought

I stare into the evening sky
The glittering twinkle of an eternal eye
I stand alone, a choice of will
With an empty space in my chest to fill
You seldom forget mistakes once made
The pain slowly passing yet hard to fade
I enjoy this time alone and free
World peace and harmony surround me
After a time such troubles pass away
Becoming expressive without words to say
Time passing quickly, one must go back
The understanding drifts towards the black
Facing the jury of your fears
The feeling of control now a stream of tears
The truth is revealed and the emptiness lost
A few lonely and silent nights the only cost

shortfall

I elevate my life towards you
Ensnared by fear and doubt
I embrace my own empathy
The sky looms far above
I fall from my nest, restless
Wings without the air of thought
I envision flight but for another
Myself no longer pure
Born into weakness and bred by desire
How do I fly? I am not yet a bird

life

Leftover love
Imagined hopes
False beliefs
Eternal hell

self-explanatory

You blame death on life
You believe in disbelief
Catch up to yourself
You’re living for dying

school soup

Mental meltdown on delay
Overtime taking its toll
Lapping up peoples views
Of everything I understood~!

riddled

I am alive
Or so I am told
I wonder why?
I hear the fables of society
I see the illusions of the populous
I want only to understand, to know!
I am alone
I pretend to exist in this world of whims
I feel the anger of the unknown
I touch the air, the nimbus of life
In a reassuring gesture
I worry for my sanity
I cry to that chameleon like unknown
I am insane!
I understand only that I am confused
I say this in mockery of truth
I dream and I feel so wanted, so alive
I try to keep these visions to no avail
I hope someone finds me in this pit
For I am dying

revelers

Mark my words oh marred mirth makers
Vacuum voids, android armies
Lie to keep it true
And die to what is you
Find the ghost inside
For the host has all but dried
Live your sleep and dream it all away
The resentment of your slumber rests sweetly on fluff and air
Buoyant in the vacuum
Maintained like your pubic hair
Bothersome but “boy do they buy it!”
It’s all-good!
The masochism of the mind
The coldness in my chest
Warm as two bottles of southern comfort
And a few more to kill the hangover

rails

A coal train racing wildly to wherever
The next bend a new view
Smoke screens and blurs options
Regenerating vigor through self-destruction
Unloading its own black life into iron cages
The fire is its salvation
One shovel at a time it betrays itself
It contains its own life in car after car
Yet feeding the fire leads it outward into the “future”
A true oxymoron
Juxtaposition to life!

prioritize

Lets rationalize
Come on you cow praising chumps
Lets feed the hungry beaver
Hey you…in the cardboard!
Lets clothe the sheep and burp the hippos
Oh! And tame the wild boar
Please Mr. president take my self-defense away
I would rather be stabbed to death than shot anyway
Send me next I want to die
Feeding other countries money
What a job!

peopled

Silent
You hear the call of the norm
The lucky infinite number of love thirsty slugs
Bulbous abstract beasts
With little salt on their tongues
Flopping their eroded corpses around
And then SPLAT…. I SPEAK!!!

pastling

No not again this return has too much substance
The reasonableness oppresses me and disturbs the ease
I fear to know what I have known
To recollect the girth burdens this ox
Blind-sight over blindness, that tinged of understanding
A faint trickle of the possible but no solidity
I fear the harvest with my yoke swollen shoulders
The plantings long forgotten and trampled… emerging
What causes them this return?
A few tears shed in winter can hold no such strength
A slight rest on the earth can offer no real warmth
The seeds able to fend me off
It seems the choice has gone beyond myself
The seedlings have me now

paranormal

I rise above time into the realm of reality
Oblivious to the plethora of opinions
The fear factory contained
Life can now begin

paper bag

Anhydrous yet putrid fossils
Conform into a confounding organism
To all eyes it is alive
Yet to open minds it yields no shape
A delirious absurdity designed by minute intellects
An urge to be wanted
Society

opened

I appreciate your kind regard
Your gentle touch catching me off guard
Kindly words spoken with charm
Your soft hands holding onto my arm
The food that filled my belly all day
Reminding me of your pleasant stay
The kisses that began melting my doubts
The touch that made my goose bumps pop out
The feel inside of a heart growing sizes
The thoughts of a mind flying over horizons
Your smile drawing my lips towards yours
The release of feeling from locked doors
I appreciate our time regardless how short
I enjoy your mind and your escort
I admire your manner and gentle concern
I thank you for listening and a chance to learn
The short period of time that we shared with each other
Filled me as much as the love a of a mother

one phone call

I sit at home saddened, alone
Waiting for a miracle, a ringing phone
A voice speaks it burns my ears
The love I feel leads to tears
I prayed, dreamt this day would be
She’s not all things but still too much for me
Laughing sweetly so my lips melt away
Smiling so deeply it surely must stay
I am far to lucky, this woman so grand
One phone call and I can hardly stand

oh my goodness?!

Is it a simple slip?
The reparation for some minor insult or injury?
It must be more
But “my goodness” …it isn’t
It is lip service to Mary Kay mascots and the Willy Wonka's of the world
Now mix it with intentions
Those things we leave for tomorrow
The perfection complex of completeness
The things we do not do and find fulfillment in
A saying against a meaning

notions

I cannot believe what I have done
I was lost in fear, true love shun
Left the joy in the dark of my mind
Forgetting myself in life’s heartless kind
The pain left swelling to a breaking
Now facing my love outside the faking
Breaking bonds to save this heart
Praying for better in this new start
Changed guilt towards reason not shame
Her love the spark enlisting my flame
My life may not be complete forever
This last thing to do, a never-ending endeavor

nimbus

Your warm eyes upon me
A gentle hello for only my ears
A delicate hand in mine
A smile to comfort when low
A healing for the troubles
An eternal love breaking death

my strength?

I grow in body, yet inside shrive
the pain I feel it must be evil
How can one man suffer so much?
I dream of her whom I cannot touch
I weaken each day as my heart cries
As my worthless attempts at affection die
With my soul I could charm a goddess
Yet with my body I fall so helpless
I distract myself from her radiance
Yet while I sleep I have no chance
Dreaming of her wishing sleep lasted indefinitely
Waking to find the only one in the room is me
One glimpse of her lifts my head
My strength in her, if I lose her I am shed
What can I do? To forget is to suffer
Once I reach her she’s mine forever

momentary

It begins continuing
Breath lunge, purging pleasant
A narrowing dive into depth
Surfacing centered and satisfied
Bloomed vision budding
Stilled steady and road in motion
Momentum vertical renouncing rotation
Starlit and sun stroked, wandering galactic
Earthling extinct now a universe breed!

missing

The rising tide so hard to hide
Lasting love still abides
Tasteless bliss of swollen lips
Lying helpless in its emptiness
Cold and numbed by the sum
Of living life within someone
Now spirit self has gone in stealth
Leaving the vault of its wealth
Far removed it seems less crude
Understanding the misunderstood
To complete the cycle I become insightful
Finding the love I had beautiful
I trusted my offer “together to prosper”
“To love each other ever after”
I release my grudge for I was smug
To blame our hearts for their love
My only reflection, my last confession
Can you return the piece in question?

mindkind

A vacant stare beyond notice even for its officer
Yearning in depths accentuated by distance
A reverberation of hope drifting stoically along
This haphazard meditation demonstrating love
A shortening of eternity, a mirror of humanity
A figure of grandeur exposing its craftsmanship
The artist becoming, the art arriving, this colliding
The horizon demonstrating galactic dimensions
The stepping-stone stood upon the pinnacle
The colossal collapsed, leveled reasonable
Beyond the barrier we begin
Before this me I begin to see
Outside the given the received
Inside this being the perceived

mares

Dead, I feel so false
Am I dead? I can hardly write
My ancient language as foreign as my tongue
Awake…I think
But I am still dead…walking dead
Faceless death… typical dead
So ungratefully
For I want to live!
Wishing that there were words for…

man-a-kin

If ignorance is bliss
Why am I so alone, so vague?
Like a half-truth told to love
Reflecting the emptiness of the claim
Striving to be decent
In deceit
Trying to overcome desire
In the land of milk and honey
Where is my joy
when there is no one to be good to?
No one who is open to love
They run from it like cats do dogs
Lustily lifeless and languid
This lifeless live lost land of lavishness
Save me some ONE happy, whole human

man-ipulates

Iron lies loosed upon stonewalls
Strong foundations hold as walls collapse
Devoured by a “caterpillar” armada
Small ideas backed by large dreams and fat toads
Who spread their infectious warts on unwary prey
The envious justice lies on the fire
Giving of a faint light
Guiding the foundations raising

lingo

What is subtle?
It appears nothing more than a weak ineptitude
A half-baked rationalization
of what truth entails
A fragmented fiction
Incomplete from intro to conclusion
Why do we complicate the complex with fashionable fanfare?
Perhaps our fragile egos cannot bare the risks of truth
This world so beat and thus shaded
A weeping willow unaware of its own tears
Thanks to silent subtleness

life's little gifts

The languid organ of life
Filled with inferior and putrid frog legs
Cursed with death and plagued rancid
Oral, anal, animal, self, same, real!
A black spot
A swift license to death

lasting

I am alone
From dark till light
The time so meaningless
It’s not about the dull or bright
Only the endless

language

Words to comfort those in pain…healing wounds
Words to help others learn…to explain
Words to bring friends close…like lovers
Words a reality universal…as the atom
Words containing others sorrow…to understand

keep freedom reigned

The poor grow hungry and the starving die
Economic reform but a fruitless lie
The criminals clog the “systems” cogs
Our justice policies mingle with the dogs
Police out of faith as corruption reigns
The government sends troops to “protect” our “friends”
America the beautiful more attractive to some
The Natives lost the land they came from
We the people of the divided states
Left by the roadside resigned to our fate
The infrastructure of lives and dreams
Heading for the borders, rowing up stream
Our forefathers came and died for this land
They provided us life with little demands
Now it is lost as freedom is reigned
The only question left is who has gained?

it matters

Lets be sick and eat human love
Squeeze out its desires
Twist and tear the deep emotions free
Laugh at the tears
Crush under foot the foul remnants
Confidence and concern
Smote a mighty fist in the mouth of second chances and feelings
Spit out the phlegm of subconscious thought
Leave only the heart to beat
Its aimless pumps the pains of life

free-dumb

Splash!
The herds of condemned rodents damn themselves to certain fate
One leap on faith and legend
Do they know something I don’t?
Splash!!!!1

hunt

Like poorly manufactured wax
Melting into obscurity with the first taste of flame
There lies, the core of society
The heathen hopeless
Grasping at icicle dreams in the summer salvation
The quick wit no shits
Always looking for happiness so far from it
The microwavable sog-savorers
Endlessly unsatisfied
Reminiscent of vampire wonder lust
The unquenchable unattainable possessive blood hunt
Hardly a choice required
This Pavlovian parasitic panorama of patheticness
A ritualistic pseudo voodoo
The growing plague of human crack rocks

grind

Lost in a jungle
Held by desires vines
Clawing, clutching, killing
Sinking in quick-planned
Sucking, stealing, starving
Lost…. afraid

galactic

Rest to calm what comes along
The gigantic has fallen
The now is how it must be delved
The gorging is vomiting up
Rest the stress if only for hope
Calm must compose the decisions
Too much is self described
Sleuthing the sludge is tiring
Rest reside inside for now
Embrace the order and hold
Kiss this away to believe
I am much too much for me
Rest and trust the silence
The center provides the gravity
Spirit ensnare my self-depravity
See that I am vastness

fester

Decaying flesh with rotting bone
This traitor that never learns
A holocaust of trillions
Senseless yet somehow beautiful
This yearly irony, a lifelong enigma
Small, large, fat, skinny…they die
Heaps of their bodies pollute the landscape
Cursed world!
I stroll through the ranks of the dead
Pondering their opaque atrocity
Realizing…I shall never understand

feel me

Behaviors shift
The assembly line of emotions
End over end, frightening, relaxing, intriguing
Virtues possess less than meaning
A tyrant guide to paranoid life
Repugnant water leading astray devotion
A ripple, a causal effect of betrayal
And the line tumbles end over …

farming

Confined to an eggshell
Boiled hard in the harsh environment
I crack!!!
To leave my shell leaves me open to hungry predators
The salty stalkers and fire starters
The driving force behind my hardness
Hawking hands streaking for my yoke
So scantily clad in its milky white purity
The tasty target of all scavengers
Feeding off the flavor of sweetness
Basted bitter with desire
A clear-cut case of confusing the chicken
With the egg

excuse ME

I wish I were in love
To fill this empty cup
I need to be loved
To feel good is not enough
I long to share joy
One cannot do it alone
I live to love you
If only you had known

emotive

A growing sensation
A desperate urge
A human manifestation
A body to purge
Two together, one idea
So hard to sever the love they share
Safe for now together as one
Living in love tightly spun
Sweet lies whispered
Meant at the time
Then he disappeared
Now she’s mine

double jeopardy

Causing alarms to blare
Stalking prey for comprehension
Burning buildings as signals
Iron bars
and their twisted souls
mingled

don't -mind- me!

Leaning on ice
The cold splattering of frozen thought
A stalemate between longevity and infrequency
To seize the day or to cease today
So I carry on an empty load
So I travel light with a full load
So I figure out a new way in
While I try to find a match between me and myself
A competition I seem to lose
Always slow at the start
And to quick to end
So I smoke with the gun
So I fall into endless winter

direct-shuns

The ever adjustable
Loose fitting life
Stealthily enthralling
Angrily enveloping
With always interchangeable
components
Bought and sold..wholesale
Retailers’ welcome
So simple yet

dams

Words
To simple to surmise
To comical to suffice
Short or long
Never a pure thought entailed
Details mere innuendo
A false horn
A failed tone
Variety is the spice
Yet for what dish?

crystal love returned

The suns eye shines through crystal love
Blinding sight and fascinating thought
To the expanse of stupidity
Exploding into billions of reflective loves
Or lusts
A whimsical and flaunting guess
Eyes becoming dazzled by its uncompromising “beauty”
A twist of crystal love and the colors shift
And change
Yet as time passes crystal love fades
And all are eclipsed by the moon

contagious chorus

Heather is like a sparrow in flight
With bright golden wings and a breast of deepest song
You chant a deep melodious peace that stalks my weary ear
Inclining my proud head low
I a wandering minstrel falling far into your glorious voice
Envisioning the salvation your sweet soul offers
With hungry eyes I race for your holy choir
And demand with outstretched hands its play
Forever my own
With a flutter of feathered arms and forsaken melody
She retreats
For I wanted all the worlds chorus and lost so much more
…its soul

contact

Caring, the carnivore of united bliss
Slapping stakes into desert sands
Restrictive lashes to elevate my dryness
How to be both serenity and honesty in hypocrisy?
One reprimands the other
Rattling and resounding anger
Release is the enemy of strength
the loss of the dream
Who am I fooling?
For I love it all

civic service

I’m a little pissed off with the world
Its empty face pock-holed and reaching
Worse than any beggar or borrower.
Such a waste to know… when you cannot.
What are the expectations of the billions who live and will die alone and uncared for?
Their money rotting in denim pits and colliding with stacks of cards from stacks of cards
Are we all so written and so defined in engraved detail and splendid color?
I cannot even begin to recognize any ONE of these THINGS as human
Wandering beasts of prey and always so damn hungry, yet constantly consuming
Like coal trains, errant and out of use, they clog the air with their coughing
Am I broken-like inside and out? Or just enslaved in freedom?
Where are my beliefs in this shit hole of choice? The time machine of truth running awkwardly in and out of empty.
The lie is the faceless friend who holds my hand to dance it all away
I don’t want to swing and spin. I understand the beat only to well
It is the song of the sirens and it has no melody but foot stomping
The circle of people closing in, pushing their friendship on me, as if I could doubt their truth
What peer is this that equates to all things so effectively with the same innocence as birth?
My womb is bleeding with the effort to hold on to this child, to allow it one more day of real
The middle is crooked and the slant hurts my eyes. I can’t seem to adjust to the pressure of the angles
Walking onward only draws them nearer…. and my mind has little room left for violence
How can it all be so all right when I, a reasoned man, find no reason TO reason
I can’t stand to be insane when I feel so well defined. Where is my choice to be? Where is my hopeful?
Filthy dirty just by nearness… and it don’t clean with tide
The waves work their mania, as all good statistics of the machine
I guess I’m figured out!
My secrets are dear abbeys and sold for sex. The violence on the rise…. which I can not understand
How can we fight ourselves when we accepted the courtship of the fair miss, mediocre?
I give no such struggle. Hugging my self to breathlessness while silent vigils of resentment exhale from my escaped self
The blind lead with the consent of the ignorant, into the flame of change, under the eye of instincts
Mans first and last, middle and eternal, constant circle of regrettable self sucking lust
Each man a woman and all things to each other, and one and the same, and shut your mouth!
Where am I in this? I gave in! I quit and yet its still here… it won’t go!
Quit me mind!

chaos math

Tired lives role on
Synchronized swimming
An escape from religions
A battle, a war for piece
Redefining commonsense
Contaminating the water
Dis-easing our children’s children
One hand on the plug
One on the gun
…I take my laps

bound

How much before the spill
Nearly topped off with inquiry
This delving into the dug up
Resurrecting another for death
Rewriting, refining the scraps
The bodies are multiplying their demands
Accosting and causing this surge
Splurging with the profits
Choking on the frothing bubbles
Welling out and bursting over
The collapse seems necessary
There is too much of US in me

boulders

The final affront
The first confrontation
A wild discovery,
A child’s masturbation
A dream of sorts
Delicate and wet
A young mans future
An old mans pet

born

Cursed morning rise again
Early betrayer of night’s quiet charm
A new day forming from scraps of the sedated past
The sun brighter, charged with sparkling eyes
The trees taller
Reaching the gaze of longing eyes and rambunctious thoughts
The need was not present for this exquisite revelation
The cloth crumples on the red carpet
Flashing the real
Envy need not approach the redness of tainted dreams
Sleepless in awe we engage the true
Requesting reminders
A signature to close the contract
Or initiate the shifting flow
A new day has bloomed
To be released yet again
The grasp on its neck
Held by the clutches of human

bondage

Loving you with hands bound
Stagnant with putrid dryness
A lipless mute unsavory staleness claiming my throne
I the jester masked with kingly garb
Dancing around my anguished mind
Tied with desire to a complicated lever and pulley soul
Slightly slovenly throwing knives to cut my bonds
Balancing on marbles I falter
Beckoning in my charming garb for reality
“Where shall I stand?”
To kiss or not to kiss, that is the reflection!
The stained, steamed, spidering glass of what is happening
I long for the love
I refrain
I pray for release
I remain

black out

I toast to fools and drunks
A merry life though short
I boast of jewels and might
And fine ladies to court
Yet never shall I die a sadder night
Then ten and five past midnight
A rope my jury and two legs my killer
A scream of fury and my last breath a blur
For a merry life is the life of fools
A drunk once told me so
Yes I am a fool but never a drunk
After my life did go

birth defect

A lavish sight of beauty most fair
A side effect of parents’ desires
A placid birth of blood and pain
Transmogrified from egg to “chick”
A yoke high in saturated id
Low in ego
The “lite” version of the common face
Yeh, but what a body!

be-ing

Frolicking ideas run free
May the seasons be thy guide
Rest only in eternal dream
For thine own soul is life
Forsake thy dire goals
Arm thyself with treason
Plague thine enemies’ minds
For they are the ideas fore-spoken

bargained with

Today is just another life I lead
Yesterday I was a fool
Today I feel like I should have yesterday
I am at a stage I hope all arrive at
Not a good highlight but a love of death
Fate and me at a compromise
I have given please give to me!
To play the fool for yet another life long day
The blur of life only increasing
Forever shall I die…yet never!!!?
Hell? I wonder
Not as humans wonder
As I a dead symbol ponder
A blotch of mistakes that sees