trying

Welling up inside this rising tide
The past that never died
Why this remembering
Again and again and again
When will it be over…. when!!!
Fantastical memories of love
Covered in blood
Why must I confront this flood?
The angers gone
Or am I wrong?
How can this pain last so long?
I know trust is broken
Fate has spoken
All the beauty love held
Stolen
I love in remembrance as if in a trance
Far to frightened to return a glance
I speak of evil with no chance for retrieval
Held between teeth clenched resentful
Why this lie
Forcing me to live without “I”
Laying down each night to a nightmarish lullaby
Effecting me with pangs of jealousy
This fruitless mess called society
I push forward always on my guard
Confronting the mirrors that stare so hard
Dear god release I pray
Endless day
Cleanse the past clear away
I feel so certain to draw this curtain
Though each attempt leaves me smitten
Let it be said
Lye with the dead
The Unknown Soldier inside my head
Pass over this man
Be gone if you can
Take away my crutch so that I might stand
Leave not a doubt
Nor the faintest shout
Bury this down with no way out
Burn this heart pull the arteries apart
Before I find this self
Back at the start
Murder me quick but don’t let me slip
Into its clawed and clenching grip
Love is no longer
Anger is stronger
Finish me off draw out the dagger