don't -mind- me!

Leaning on ice
The cold splattering of frozen thought
A stalemate between longevity and infrequency
To seize the day or to cease today
So I carry on an empty load
So I travel light with a full load
So I figure out a new way in
While I try to find a match between me and myself
A competition I seem to lose
Always slow at the start
And to quick to end
So I smoke with the gun
So I fall into endless winter