unfulfilled

Welling up inside, the rising tide
The past that never died
Why this remembering
Again and again and again
When will it be over…. when?
Fantastical memories of love covered in blood
Why must I confront this flood?
The angers gone or am I wrong
How can this pain last so long?
I know trust is broke
Fate has spoken
All the beauty love held ..stolen
I love in remembrance as if in a trance
Far to frightened to return a glance
I speak of evil
Little chance for retrieval
Held between teeth clenched resentful
This living lie, facing life without “I”
Laying down to a nightmare lullaby
Effecting me with pangs of jealousy
This fruitless mess spelled society
I push forward always on my guard
Confronting mirrors that stare so hard
Dear god release, I pray
Endless day
Cleanse the past clear away
I feel so certain to draw this curtain
While each attempt leaves me smitten
Let it be said!
Lie with the dead
This unknown soldier inside my head
Pass over this man
Be gone if it can
Take away my crutch so that I may stand
Leave not a doubt
Not the faintest pout
Offer the buried its way out
Burn this heart
Tear the arteries apart
Before I find this self returned to the start
Murder me quick do not let me slip
The clawing clenching iron grip
Love is no longer anger is stronger
Finish me off, draw the dagger