my strength?

I grow in body, yet inside shrive
the pain I feel it must be evil
How can one man suffer so much?
I dream of her whom I cannot touch
I weaken each day as my heart cries
As my worthless attempts at affection die
With my soul I could charm a goddess
Yet with my body I fall so helpless
I distract myself from her radiance
Yet while I sleep I have no chance
Dreaming of her wishing sleep lasted indefinitely
Waking to find the only one in the room is me
One glimpse of her lifts my head
My strength in her, if I lose her I am shed
What can I do? To forget is to suffer
Once I reach her she’s mine forever